Lend a Hand?

Sometimes I wish I had a fast forward button. I want things to happen that need patience. I want things that I can never have. I sometimes want to leave but there is a part of me that still wants it. I wish to be the life of party. I want things done NOW instead of time creeping by me with the incomplete work in front of my face. I want something DESPERATELY but I have competition. And yet, I still manage to go to sleep at night. Sure, I have things I regret and recent truths have made me realize that my voice indeed has power, but that doesn’t mean I will abuse it. I am trying to control my voice. I want things to turn out the way I want them to all the time but I know that this reality is out of my reach. But don’t worry; I just need time