Lend a Hand?

Sometimes I wish I had a fast forward button. I want things to happen that need patience. I want things that I can never have. I sometimes want to leave but there is a part of me that still wants it. I wish to be the life of party. I want things done NOW instead of time creeping by me with the incomplete work in front of my face. I want something DESPERATELY but I have competition. And yet, I still manage to go to sleep at night. Sure, I have things I regret and recent truths have made me realize that my voice indeed has power, but that doesn’t mean I will abuse it. I am trying to control my voice. I want things to turn out the way I want them to all the time but I know that this reality is out of my reach. But don’t worry; I just need time

I Know Things Now

I had a friendly chat with my friend tonight and it made me realize that my voice does have power. I abused the power of my voice and I had no idea of the damage it was capable of until it was too late. I always thought of my voice as powerless. I could never measure up to the popular kids at school but for my voice to be effective and to be heard and taken seriously, why didn't I see that?  Why was I so blind to it all before? I am always wondering what if? But what does it matter anyway? I mean, I can't change the past! But realizing where I am now and where I was back then, I don't want to change anything. I am happy where I am now and I don't want to be miserable for the rest of the best year of my life. So let me warn you now; Words turn into ideas; ideas are weapons to the modern society and these weapons can cause destruction if used improperly.