Lend a Hand?

Sometimes I wish I had a fast forward button. I want things to happen that need patience. I want things that I can never have. I sometimes want to leave but there is a part of me that still wants it. I wish to be the life of party. I want things done NOW instead of time creeping by me with the incomplete work in front of my face. I want something DESPERATELY but I have competition. And yet, I still manage to go to sleep at night. Sure, I have things I regret and recent truths have made me realize that my voice indeed has power, but that doesn’t mean I will abuse it. I am trying to control my voice. I want things to turn out the way I want them to all the time but I know that this reality is out of my reach. But don’t worry; I just need time

I Know Things Now

I had a friendly chat with my friend tonight and it made me realize that my voice does have power. I abused the power of my voice and I had no idea of the damage it was capable of until it was too late. I always thought of my voice as powerless. I could never measure up to the popular kids at school but for my voice to be effective and to be heard and taken seriously, why didn't I see that?  Why was I so blind to it all before? I am always wondering what if? But what does it matter anyway? I mean, I can't change the past! But realizing where I am now and where I was back then, I don't want to change anything. I am happy where I am now and I don't want to be miserable for the rest of the best year of my life. So let me warn you now; Words turn into ideas; ideas are weapons to the modern society and these weapons can cause destruction if used improperly.

The Oscars and other News

Tonight is the 84th Annual Academy Awards. Tonight's host is Billy Crystal, in which this will be his ninth time hosting the Awards. In any case, there are some serious competitors for tonight's gold! Good luck to all of our nominees and may the best ones win! In other news, I deeply apologize because it's been a long time since I last wrote. So, I am done with Cabaret (it was a stellar performance) and deeply involved into our new musical, Into the Woods, which is set to perform March 31st/April 1st! Prom is April 2nd, in which I have a date in mind but I have to confirm it. This is my last prom of high school, so I have to make it count. Also, homework is starting to annoy me and I want nothing to do with it (senioritis!) I had a blast this weekend, I was swing dancing yesterday at the Shriners Club and the night before I went out to dinner with my roommate, my sister and her roommate. We had to wait for a taxi for 50 minutes! Isn't that ridiculous? Seriously! And they thought we were playing around? NO! We weren't! So in conclusion to this busy weekend, my book is still in the editing process. How it works is that my publisher and I are tossing the work back and forth in which I tell him which parts to correct. It's a tedious process, but it will be all worth it in the end. I hop you all are having a Fabulous February. If you have any suggestions for topics to write about, comment below :)

Legally Thoughtful

In five minutes, I'll be legal. I'll be 18 years old. It's scary now that you think about it. I have been on this earth for almost 18 years listening, learning, witnessing the world around me change and I, myself have changed over the course of my life. I hope to continue in doing so. Anyway, I am off to sleep. Just thought I would put that up there... :)

Something to Think About...

I deeply apologize for not having posted for such a long period of time. However, every day life got the best of me and has yanked my free time away from me. Oh well, you can't get everything you asked for. Senior Cabaret is in a week ( this is basically a senior talent show) so is our Swing Dance performance to the tune of "Candy Man". Then we have musical rehearsals underway for Into the Woods set for the end of March/beginning of April. We have your every day classes and time committed to the prison known as "school" as well as many other things to juggle. Crazy yet? I have been driven to madness. I have barely had enough time to sleep, more or less, eat a regular meal and catch up on my favorite TV shows or sit back and read a book or take a nap. Hardly any time! No, I have to put up with the routine that the school assigns for you. Freedom, HA! As if! I have been busy at work doing other things that the school now boasts about. I have sent in my completed manuscript to the publisher and hopefully if all goes well, I will be a published author before graduation! Isn't it exciting? For those of you who do have the time to read my articles, I thank you. Spread the word! I want to make myself know to my resources. After all, we are the age of technology! I watched a movie just recently called "Madagascar" which reminded me of this institution; "Don't bite the hand of the person that feeds you." This led to another movie popping into my head fighting back this quote, "V for Vendetta," aka my favorite movie of all times! "People shouldn't be afraid of their governments, governments should be afraid of their people" and this is true. In less than 3 days, (Monday is my birthday) and I will be eligible to have, at my disposal, a great adult right; the right to vote. This is particularly important because the Presidentialb election will decide if our country will fall to pieces. The President should be afraid of us; we make the choice which decides their fate. Think about that... Until next time, I have a dinner to attend to. I don't want to be late to my own party ;)

On a Leash

So do you ever feel like you are being yanked in every direction on a leash? That was me for the last 48 hours! That is why G-D created the weekends; just to take us off the leash to relinquish ourselves for only a while. But what if a while is not long enough? So its the New Year? We just dive into it as if there was no release of tension  from that leash we call every day life. Any who, I hope everyone has a New Years resolution... Mine is a bit embarrassing but I have not been fulfilling it very well. We have 129 days until graduation and we all know how much time will fly. So why not release that leash and let us graduate already? COME ON! I want to be enrolled already, but one of my top choices won't tell me until April! I guess I have to put up with the tugging for just a bit longer... :P

2012; The End?

HAPPY NEW YEAR! As for the end of the world theory, allow me to say something about that. So for starters, I just think that the Mayans ran out of tablet and they use this to scare future generations. But that's just my theory. I also believe that the world will end when the Sun will explode which will be BILLIONS of years from now. So, I believe that the Mayans can say that, but I will proudly exalt my existence in 2013! The holidays were good for me. I went skiing in Snowshoe, WV and it was not only foggy and cold, but it was a fun time to get close to family. I was staying near the Elk River which was where a dead body was discovered in Silence of the Lambs (we watched this movie on New Years Eve and we were freaked out by this). Now I am back at school and its pretty nice. I have had to switch houses because a situation came up (which I don't want to reveal at the moment) and now I am the only senior in the junior girls house! But don't worry, they all welcomed me with open arms! <3 Anyway, what movies did you all see over break? I saw War Horse and Game of Shadows! They both blew my mind! I hope your breaks from school/work/whatever was  relaxing because 2012, HERE WE COME! <3 u guys! :)